Giving up…coming to the end of yourself

I had been slight addicted to watching Dave Ramsey videos and what he said in what vid spoke to me..

Husband Won’t Stop Investing in Baby Step 2

Specifically at around 3:50.. That’s probably part of or exactly what is meant what by the phrase “giving up” and “coming to the end of yourself”…

ha I thought he was being arrogant earlier in the beginning like as if his plan is the best way but as I got further along it made sense..

He said, “I dont know how to fix it ,could you show me how, and then you submit yourself to a plan”.  Using an example of hiring a fitness trainer he explained,  you submit your self to their system, because they have abs and you have a keg.

I know I haven’t really been sticking to the plan I feel God, Jesus and or His Spirit has been given to me.  I have a tendency perhaps to not stick to a plan. I then try to do other things that he did not counsel  me to do in hopes that it may work. But then you see you’ve been int the same place for years and frustrated and its like ..ok maybe you should really abandon all your other plans and at least focus on doing with full effort do what he told you to do.

Interestingly kind of reminds  Joyce Meyer teaching
How to Be Led By the Spirit

There may be more to the meaning of  giving up too – I’ve been told.. I’ve had a tendency to try to earn God’s love..  so it maybe related to stop trying to earn His love, which I need to seek what that means..or if anyone has any suggestions on how to practically not to do that I’d appreciate it.




Update..graphic production

I thought that I would not continue with graphic design courses at the local community college.  I could learn it on my own.

Then I got fired from a job full time job in July. It didn’t pay great but it was better than what i’d ever had before. After being fired, I panicked and for some reasons, I decided I’d go to the local community college full time.

It was not easy. Two were online. One would think online is easier, but I got waaaaaaaay behind. Painfully behind. Because I would not watch the class live online. I hated watching classes after 7:00 pm. I’d instead decide to watch them “later”. There are videos I haven’t watched yet and the semester is over. Though those videos were like the last class(es) so technically they may have not been needed for the final assignments. There maybe like three videos I haven’t watched yet  2 from one class and 1 from another class.

Add to the drama of full time classes, a part time job that was crappy for me, you’ve got a recipe for hell on earth especially for someone still not perfect at time management. I ran into serious problems this season. Thank God the classes have ended, unfortunately I still have the job…you may ask why not quit and get another one.. * rolls eyes and sighs*

On the other hand, the classes did help me learn adobe programs. Literally every class had an adobe product attached to it. Lightroom.Photoshop. Illustrator. Premier.

So its great that I’ve sort of got something like a foundation upon which to build or create something. Creative content. Nevertheless there is this one dragon I’ve been trying to lay a hold off. I feel like a guy trying to hold or grab ahold of a dragon by the neck, that’s crazily moving its head back and forth. I’m trying to lay hold of it but I guess it feels like it’s hard for me to get grasp or hold on it, maybe it keeps slipping, gliding from my hand.

The dragon is music production and what other things that entail it. I’d care to learn piano, and guitar too. I mean I know that there are people who taught themselves how to play more than one instrument. Music theory seems like something I should learn a bit of too.

I seem to be up against several things stopping me from grasping it. When one is worried about finances and not pulling it in enough money to cover all their bills, it’s hard to concentrate on something that isn’t going to bring in money soon. I feel like I’ve got to get money soon’s really, really bad like it’s getting near where it could turn into an emergency.

Unfortunately I wasn’t my own man and got degrees and a whole lot of school debt, for subjects that I probably shouldn’t have studied…

The Dave Ramsey Show Youtube clips

Many of the youtube clips he has for his show are the epitome of clickbait. Oh master we are not worthy. Like a magnet I innately want to click, and watch immediately.

The headlines are crazy an a bit unique.  On the other had, I’d like to see the light at the end of the tunnel that he may provide for the people who call in. If these people can possibly get out of these debt holes, there could be hope for the rest of us with lesser debt.

Some headlines

“We haven’t paid our Bills For 6 Years!” 
oh really…* eyes roll up to the sky*
(real talk who goes 6 years without paying any of their bills? any)

“My girlfriend has $450,000 in debt”   
Maybe it’s time to find another one? lol well she’s planning to be a dentist so maybe that will help,  all I can say is if you are going to marry her hold on, it may be a bumpy ride if she wants to pay that off in a short amount of time

“Step Dad married a 24 year old gold digger”
Uhhh not too surprising..we’ve all probably hear of famous rich men that could do that..ok well to be fair in the clip she mentions property the step dad and mom bought that is worth more than a million ( maybe 2.5) so…Btw the step dad is 77.

$320,00 in school Debt  Loan and We Aren’t Even Doctors!
smh..all I can say for that. I kind of pity them

You make $320,000 A MONTH?!?
N&%^3 why are you calling in ?  Use that money and get you a personal financial advisor. You could probably hire one from Dave Ramsey’s company. Leave the line for us broke people that need it!!! lol

The amount of debt these people have is astronomical and lo and behold what does most of the debt relate to . You got it, school loans. Just annoying . unfortunately most of us made stupid decisions and are naive and got ourselves way into deep.  I have a huge amount of school loan debt too. But the testimonies are sort of inspiring and give hope, that one doesn’t have to have that debt forever,

haha,  these headlines though I couldn’t make this stuff up even if I wanted to.