Job search workshop


So I recently had to go to a workshop as part of my obligation to continue to receive unemployment benefits. I thought it might be boring, routine kind of event. And honestly did not expect too much from it, other than probably what I was use to hearing and probably already knew. Pretty much to my knowledge everyone there was in a similar boat.

I was wrong.

It was for the most part fun. I learned and experienced different people, and their personalities, hearing their stories. The trainer was a bit entertaining.  I had so much fun and enjoyed myself.  I of course learned a lot too. I took notes and I guess I should try to consolidate what I learned. I learned about the “hidden job market” I never knew it existed.  Interestingly, enough there was a person there who had worked in hr and she told her side of the story,  like how it is to be in the shoes of the employer , responding with explanations for why employers may have acted some sort of way that those there did not like.

So for sure it was helpful and valuable. Yet,  if I were to be honest, do I really want to work for an employer again?  A workshop on how I could be my own boss, that perhaps I would have been more privy too. This workshop was geared towards obtaining employment with an employer.

Interesting thing that was asked by the trainer to the class , was -Do you have a plan?-Many people raised their hand. He may have asked too if the plan was written down. Thinking back I couldn’t say I have a concrete plan.


I need to get more clear on what it is I am looking for or will fit who I am , and then go for it. I should really write out a plan. I’ve thought about many things to do but perhaps I need to concentrate on few things, or even one or two things, and use my energy right.

I’ve shared some of what I think I may be good at or can do. To  be honest what’s left is to try it out, practice and put out content. What’s been holding me back? I feel I need to get more serious  and aware about working to get out of the situations I’m in that bothers me.

Sources ( and Resources) that you may find helpful
Essentialism- Greg Mckeown
48 Days to the Work You Love: Preparing for the New Normal – Dan Miller

Pictures from Pixabay


So recently I got terminated. It hurts, I feel my identity was affected; I feel kind of stupid and dumb. The catcher is that this is kind of like the second time this year for similar or same reason. Needless to say I have to get to the root of this issue. I was told in a dream by one of my brothers the reason was “Terror” that I should study something ( Genesis 1-3?) . I think he also  said something  laughing that I was scared of robots ( sometimes dreams don’t always make sense). I think  if I study that perhaps I could free from “terror”. (seems like what my brother may have said or implied).

Both times its because of not really successfully completing the training process. Making mistakes. It’s like people think I’m stupid. Unfortunately,  I was way to honest with my employers.. smh. When I made mistakes or was afraid that I did, I let them know. But then again its true there was a lot of fear. But to be honest, both jobs I didn’t feel were for me. This one I was informed also that the supervisor didn’t think I was a good fit for the team.

In addition , I read perhaps it could ADD or ADHD. I searched online for stories of other who were deemed slow learners and being fired for it, something like that.

I noticed in both jobs I seemed to project lack of confidence based on what those in charge of my training would convey.  Both jobs I wasn’t particularly comfortable but there was fear ( terror to be exact).

But, perhaps also since I did not really care for the jobs ,  I did not take them as seriously as I should eg ( studying outside of work making a concrete plan protocol for carrying out my work duties. ). I guess I felt at this job it wasn’t that hard, that within time I could completely pick it up and get comfortable with it.  Perhaps, if I had wrote things down in right good order, and tried to follow the same order time always, then maybe I could have learned faster.  Now that I think of it, it may have been  a culmination of other little things along with the bad time management and efficiency issue that may have resulted in my termination. They gave me the opportunity to resign in lieu of discharge but I did not choose that.

To top it off the stress  soo much . It was sooooo bad, I hate to think of what would have been if I had not been terminated. I really felt the effects smh,

Looking back, I feel it was not for me, perhaps this is an opportunity, ( I know its an opportunity) to do something else, and I should  honestly deal with what causing this terror issue. Perhaps too a regularly job like a 9-5 is not for me,